What the eff!?

How in hell could I lose an essential undergarment like a bra, I ask you!? I have torn this house apart and I swear to GOD I have NOT been stripping outside....recently. :P
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Blast from the Past

Confusion is my middle name.
Because I heard from he who's name shall not be spoken last night. (hint: it was Alex.) And he wants to see me.
And I am very stupid because I'm considering it.
Argh.
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Disgusting

I am disgusted by the fact that the U.S. military currently does not allow gay men and women to serve their country unless they lie about their sexual orientation. Obama certainly better repeal that ban ASAP, it's appalling.

I have never understood homophobia, or why homosexuals aren't allowed the same rights as heterosexuals. Maybe I'm just more liberated than most, but I just don't get it. Racism, sexism, any prejudice = no excuse for it. Prejudice of any kind should not be tolerated, but still appears to be alive and well. *sigh*

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Peace/pieces

First order of business: I cannot for the life of me fathom why in the HELL Obama was given a Nobel Peace Prize...he was in office all of what...two weeks?...when he was nominated for it, and is, in fact, still at war with more than one nation...so how exactly does this embody peace??? Obviously TPTB are just trying to drive home to us how much more awesome Obama is compared to George Doubleya. And really a TicTac running the country would be better than Bush, but we don't award them Nobel Peace Prizes. I'm not saying that somewhere down the road he won't actually deserve this for something he may do in the future, but I think there were a lot more deserving individuals this time around that did actual deeds that promoted peace.

Second: oooooh, do NOT get me started on Stephen Harper and the total hypocrisy of his "surprise" performance at an arts gala last weekend. It was obviously totally orchestrated (pardon the pun) to generate more popularity for him...to show his "human side" (barf) and to counteract his total LACK of support for the arts in the past. He is still not supporting them; but this is an attempt to make it look as though he does. I am also offended that one author of an article I read about it said he "wasn't as bad as Ringo" doing the Beatles tune he sang. Please. Ringo rocks!!


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There's a hole in my retina, dear Liza, dear Liza...

So it turns out the reason I can't see out of my right eye (they're both kinda shit but the right one's definitely the worst) is because there's a hole in my retina and it's leaking blood. So I will be having eye surgery in 3 weeks. I've had problems for about a year now with retinal hemhorraging with the diabetes, but worse the last couple months. The retina specialist said I won't get my sight that's left the building back, but they'll prevent further vision loss so that's good. Always something, eh.
Pain's been returning in my spine, so kind of a not good week here, lack of sleep and all that. But on the plus side, I think I get my cast off my leg next week to trade in for an air cast, so that should help, plus I freakin' HATE casts so yay for it leaving! I've been cranky for the last 3 days. Listening to the new Matt Good album right now though, that's helping!! :) :) Hilarious that Mike went and bought this for me (hilarious to me, anyway, knowing as I do that Mike HATES Matt with a passion; his music and generally as a human being - he toured with him years ago and can't stand him)
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Been hanging with Mike quite a bit; good thing we're enjoying it as I won't be able to drive probably for about another month with the broken leg still and the eye stuff. I'm sure he's glad too as he was jokingly threatening to take me for a walk in the woods on uneven ground the other day hahaha (to break the other leg; he likes having the car lol)
:)
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le sigh

I can go from so happy to so miserable in such an inordinately short span of time I think I might actually lose my mind.
I'm so sad that some of my friends think I am really just a selfish, manipulative nasty person. I honestly have never seen myself as deliberately manipulating anyone ever, and if I have complained or vented to friends, it's because they were friends, I thought that's what friends do, and I would certainly reciprocate, and have, for anyone wanting to talk to me. I never meant to be demanding or anything else. It saddens me to be seen this way. I hate myself. Can you really be so selfish if you hate yourself? Maybe that in itself is selfish, I don't even know anymore. I certainly don't like myself at all. And feel I can't be myself, because myself is an asshole it seems.
:( I'm going to have to try to turn myself into something that people can actually like. I thought I was a good person, but now I don't think so anymore.
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so sweet

You may have to copy and paste this link into your browser to get it to work, I'm having problems with the linking button, but this is the nicest video anyone could ever have sent me to cheer me up while I was down. :) :) Keep in mind that I am the world's hugest Barry Manilow fan ;)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ul-djevrA30&feature=related

( I think it's more the thought of this person searching for that online for me that amuses me more than anything! lol)
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