on the upswing?

sometimes my posts are a little uh...down, I know, to put it mildly.
Last night I was feeling super depressed, but luckily posting depressing poetry I wrote on here did help me vent. :D (sorry , ha)

I didn't sleep at all last night between worrying about things, pain, and the stupid cat yowling right beside my head every time I would have the audacity to doze off.

I had talked to my other best friend, Mike, last night earlier though and planned to meet him for coffee this morning. Well, he had coffee, my stomach could only cope with diet coke. Mike's my oldest (and bestest along with Seanie) friend; we went to college for music together back in the Dark Ages and we've not been able to scrape each other off since. :P
I do find that spending time with Mike or Sean and being able to talk about things definitely does make me feel better.
I'm still feeling very sick today, but my soul feels a bit better. :)
And I don't think any cat or beast could keep me awake again tonight in my exhausted state! :P
Deb out.
D.

some days

Some days
I just get sick of feeling sick
Sick of being alone
Sick of waiting
Some days
I wish that you
Would rush to my side
Like I would to yours
If the tables were turned.
Some days
I just feel disheartened.
And sick.

D.

lazy me, paint and bureacratic b.s.

Yeah so I haven't blogged since before Christmas, sue me.
I haven't been that well, still waiting for the March 11th hemotology appointment, unless there's a cancellation before then, (which I am not, at this point, holding my breath for)
I'm getting by though. Even did some painting last week, first time since I got sick five months-ish ago, I think.
So what's new? hmmm, let's see. My sweet best friend Seanie bought Matt Good tickets for Matt's Cleveland concert on my birthday March 20th for a birthday gift for me..:) That's the good news. The bad news was that when I went to get my passport so I can go, last week, I was informed I couldn't get a passport because my birth certificate had EXPIRED. WTF!!! Most effing retarded thing I ever heard of. Apparently birth certificates issued in the province of Quebec before 1994 have been declared invalid because they were accepting some forms of religious i.d. for them prior to then....or some such stupid shit. You would think they would notify people of this, but nooooo. So I had to get my MPP to help me, pay an extra 50 bucks to rush the application as i need to travel in March, and pay 20 bucks to courier the i.d. and the application to Quebec because they don't "like " faxes. For a birth certificate I already had, basically. And they've known this since 1994. And I've went to the States twice since then, and could ostensibly have been refused re entry into Canada as my only i.d. showing my citizenship is "invalid". Nice, eh.
Then, if there is no problem with getting the birth certificate, i can then pay twice as much as normal (170 bucks) to try and accelerate the passport application process. Craziness. What a country.
I really swear I was Hitler in a former life to deserve the punishment that is this one sometimes.
D.